11 May Demystifying the artist
Today is my day on the demystifying the artist month. My thoughts on what being an artist means to me are below.
You can find out more about the project here.
What it means to me to be an artist
Being an artist is a vocation for me. As Lady Gaga would say – ‘baby I was born this way’. If I’m not making art I’m not happy. I feel like some part of me is missing and I only get it back when I start making art again. Everything I do is filtered through my artist eyes. And I love it.
I’m very grateful that I was able to become a full time artist 3 years ago. That changes things for sure. Suddenly you have to think about making money and that can really kill the fun and passion. I’ve had to work on keeping my focus on keeping it fun and not becoming a chore. I wouldn’t change anything of course and thought of going back is what keeps me going forward.
I’ve realised that much of my work is to keep my mind focussed, to not give into the fear that is ever present, that tells me give up, to play safe, that I’m not worthy and all that stuff. None of which is true but it is so easy to get sucked into that place. Everyday I have to work on this stuff as well as making art. I’ve learnt so much about myself in the last 3 years of being a full time artist. It’s been amazing, it’s been hard but always amazing and I still have to pinch myself sometimes that I’m not dreaming and this is really my life.